Saturday, January 21, 2006

Remember all the things you've tried to forget

Have you ever felt such a strong absence of something you used to have? Like you can physically feel the loss, and there's a hollowness next to you? It's an awful, empty feeling. It's worse than lonely and I'm feeling it. I feel it moreso in the evenings, late at night and in the mornings. I guess that's because that's when I have the most time to stop and think about things. So how are you supposed to get past that feeling? No one else can fill that void, I don't want anyone else to.

I've been sick the last two weeks and there have been only two people I wished could have made me feel better, or at least be there to comfort me. It hurts to be so far away sometimes.