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Sleepless Night

Last night and this morning was really frustrating. I was incredibly tired from spending the whole day outside in the nice hot sun...all I wanted to do was get a good night's sleep. However my mind and body had other plans for me. I am very sunburt, and of course have some nice, weird tan lines that you get from watching baseball in a chair all day. I don't know how, but I have this weird stripe going down the side of my left leg...and all around it is a nice pink color that burns. My shoulders got it pretty bad too, my brother has endearingly given me the nickname Lobster, very original I might add. So anyway, after my shower I rubbed some aloe all over me and went to bed at midnight. I tried to make myself as tired as possible. Now, I like to sleep on my stomach and right side. This is unfortunate because my right shoulder was burnt the most and also my left ankle was really burnt so when I slept on my side my legs rubbed together and my shoulder stung. So I flipped to my stomach, only to remember that my chest and my cheeks were burnt too. Talk about a lot of tossing and turning.

So then I hear my dad and brother wake up, because for some god awful reason my brother's coach decided that even though they won both games yesterday and don't have to play again until Monday's championships, they should still have practice at 9am. My brother was not graced with quiet, and well, grace. So I sat in bed waiting for them to leave so I could go back to sleep...once again, my mind had other intentions and I started thinking and worrying which led to me freaking out and getting worked up over something I didn't even know if it happened. But I'm pretty good at convincing myself that people are really worse than they may seem, so I ended up getting mad at someone who I don't even know if they did the thing I was mad about. That doesn't make sense, but then again I have paranoia and trust issues with people. I want to know what event(s) in my life made me like this. Because it sucks. So to calm myself down I repeated in my head "you don't even know if that is true" "Get over it" "It's not worth this" and a bunch of stuff like that. Needless to say, the burn started burning again and I had to get up to blow my nose anyway (damn allergies, you should have seen how miserable I was yesterday in the grass!) so I decided to just get up for the day. And the mall doesn't even open until 11am, which was where I was going to go today because my freaking tank top ripped that I just bought like two weeks ago at Express. If you're going to make lace around a neckline, make sure it won't rip! I guess my boobs are just too big. HAH! Just kidding...

I think this morning made my ulcer bigger.

posted by Caitlin @ 9:07 AM