What's Next?

A Fresh Start

Take it or leave it, but honesty is the only policy.

My friend Arthur said that to me awhile ago and I'm just now starting to understand what it really means. But it's hard to be honest with the people you love, for fear of hurting them, rejection, or losing them. How do you know when to say something heavy like "I'm still in love with you" or "I feel like you're using me"? But not only is honesty the only policy with others, it's also with yourself. And that is something I need to work on. But how do I do that? I could start by listing them...okay, I'll try that:

I don't even know where to start. I know where to start, but how do I say it?
I'm in a place right now where I don't know where I am. I'm not in a good place...which is weird because I know what I want. But it never works out. This is depressing, sorry. I'll just go to work now, and then go to my other job...today is going to be a long one.

I just want to go home.

posted by Caitlin @ 9:31 AM